happy birthday JOYCE DEAREST!!

you're the best sister ever!
i love you (:

busy_gal86 i have been!! ayyyyy.. was ill illl illlllllll the past 2-3 wks.. actually more or less still ongoing.. grrrr! illnesses were obviously aggravated by the 2 major mid term tests that i had... namely history and social psych of new media.. both onta same day one right after the other! oh my.. inta end i didnt even have time to sleep!!! :/ yes yes i know.. stop last minuting!! but i cant help it!! even if u gimme 3 wks for the tests i will just slack till the last few days. what a loser. i need to revamp my blog! i spent like 7hrs doing up a very nice combined blog for my loves which totally outshines my own.. how loser is that.. its time for a change =) shumz and i had a photo taking mania in her room a few days back! whahahah took sooooooooooooooooo many stooooopidddd pics.. hopefully it doesnt get exposed. ahhaha! she and i really do the stupidest things la.. what wld i do wout her in hall with me.. it ink she is my hall bestie la! (: LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE! the most happening thing that happened to me the past few wks was CHAR AND CHERI'S BIRTHDAY AND THE EVENT AFTER DP where i won free stuff but shant elaborate on cz it was so embarrassing.. i am so not beatboxer material -.- anyways.. ser and i spent like a whopping $150 on both their presents ccombined!! it was CRAZYYYYYY!! we bought em like huge embarrassing balloons (which i nearly died of embarrassment holding initially b4 we passed it to em.. the stupid thing kept hitting my face and continued doing so even after i passed it on -.-) we personalized the balloons and bought them chocolate cupcakes from the ehh.. shit what is called.. the chocolate factory or cupcake factory or sth.. ayyyyyy the new one near smu with long lines of queues. ahhaha.. and we bought em 3 items each!! (: superrr dupeeeeeeeer! glad they both loved it! ahha especially cheri la.. she was like WOWWWWWWW..... WOWWWWWW.... WOWWWWWWWW! AHHAHA (: it was all worth it! we bought char 2 mango tops, 2 pairs of (cross) earrings and a cute car display thing AND we bought cheri a damn super nice big nike waterbottle (that i want so bad) and a super chio puma clutch and a nice nike white cap! AHHHHHHH . half the time when ser and i were shopping for the presents we were like eyeing our own stuff and some of their chosen items with longing and/or jealously.. sigh. we had a lovely meal of sakae sushi which char treated (3 cheers for sashimiiiiiii!) and proceeded to karaoke at my moms club!!! even tho we only had 1 hr left to sing... it was worth it.. ser and i already had impromptu 'plans' all figured out.. when we arrived ata club.. the stupid guy in charge kept saying u guys only have 1 hr left to sing and u sure u want to etc etc.. he niaoed on and on for like 10 whole min.. before he helped us set up. grr. then when we went in.. ser and i made a huge fuss about all of us needing to pee. so i said ' hey u know what why dont u guys go pee first while i set up the karaoke system here' then char was like 'okay' then char helped our situation by saying 'u dont want to go meh?' then serene came in perfectly and said 'or i stay with you (me) and help u set up you two (char n cheri) go first?' PERFECT.. so immed when the two of em went out the door.. ser and i made a MADDDD DASHHHH to set up the whole celebration!!! we arrange the presents... set up the cupCAKES.. light the candles.. find the lighter.. switch on the karaoke system and find an appropriate happy birthday song (there were abt 3) test them check sound system.. play with the lights... and omg.. we basically went crazy!!! ahhaa. nv felt so stressed before. then just when i was testing the song cheri and char came back in. serene immed picked up the mike handed one to me and started singing... HAPPYYYYYY... then i immed pressed back and replayed the stupid happy birthday song.. which had a super long intro... so we just stood there like fools stuck on our 'haaaaaapppppppppyyyyyyyyy' for damn long!! before we finally maanged to get in sync with the stupid song on the big screen tv.. char and cheri were SHOCKED SPEECHLESSS! hahahah yayyyyyy! they totally didnt expect it at all. they thought the balloons were the end of the presents! ahah. the funniest part was (besides ser and my singing admist burstfuls of giggles) the lyrics of the song that went on and on forever... 'may god be with you' ..... 'happy birthday my dearest... ' and all sorts of odd lyrics that dont fit the moment.. haahha. i bet none of u alll have actually heard the full birthday song before. we were all on a momentary high! it was awesome (: ser and i were so stressed and last min the whole aftnn.. shopping for presents.. searching for candles and lighter while we were already with the two of em.. and hiding the fact that we were holding a surprise celebration.. secret conv's abt the surprise or things we have yet to get in fronta the two.. the many many impromptu lies we had to tell in order to surprise em clueless! OH MYYYYYYYY. it wasn't easy i tell u! hahaha. but it was a fantastic day with the trio.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAR AND CHERI!! WE LOVE YOU!! (:

kang is seriuosly the funniest.. nv fails to make me laugh. i was telling her abt all the lessons i learnt and stuff.. and she actually said.. 'totally lessons learnt write down in a powerpoint slide and show me ah!' omg it was sooooooo damn funny la! i immed changed my msn nick to that.. haha! damn off. then kang and i were sorta like responding to each others statements via our msn nicks until yunx nudged me on my msn and asked if kang n i were mad! ahhaha (: love that piece of crappish kang. ahhhh.. still tired from zouk last night.. FIRST TIME PLANNED CLUBBING WITH PING AND MEILIN! (: (ping FINALLY we did it).. the usual gang came along... shumz pam tav ali xp and otheres like tze yeong bryan ji ting (who was really really funny btw.. he is like the untypically cute hilarious drunk kind..) and his friends. a night of fun and drunkardness!! (not me tho of course) (: good songs good time (: ayyyyy okay back to doing my readings for tmrs meeting for next wks presentation! eeeks! :/

i was soooooooo bored that i decided to take a test my fren sent me. hahaha everything is pretty accurate i must say.. except for the last one.. makes me sound like some trashy bitch! ):

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one which make you feel warmth and in-love always.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You always want to get married, but in fact, you don't even know
what it really is.

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.

http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

how embarrassing. how utterly embarrassing. hahaha. nv ever ever in my life wld i imagine that i wld do sth like that. but oh well. whats done is done. haha -.- mich saluted or rather worshipped me for being brave.. but ultimately it is foolishness and stupidity that i feel. lol. no matter past or present.. embarrassment still creeps up to my neck and strangles me to shame. damn it. oh well. if its meant to be then its meant to be.. if not.. well you cant fight for whats never yours. haha. at least i said my peace. no regrets whatsoever. right? right. (: (wow i tink im actually starting to partially believe what im trying to convince myself over and over. hur hur) CNY this year is such an unusually sad sad sad time for me.. its not my family that's causing it of course. in fact my family (my mom and dad) are the ones who make me so so so happy everytime i get back (: i simply love them so much. in my secondary and jc days i was too hot headed and stupid to really cherish them completely.. but now i guess since i stay hall 4/7 i really really miss them and love them so much more. i guess its true that time apart does maketh the heart grow fonder? (: u then learn to treasure every single moment with the ones you love. anyway.. vday cld not have pass any funnier.. or more hilarious. all thanks to a certain someone who threw flowers(in a plastic bag) on my lap.. i still cant get over it. ITS SO HILARIOUS! inta end i decided that the plastic bag was priceless and decided to hang it on my rack for safekeeping (or rather for laughing). hahaha nonetheless i really enjoyed myself and appreciated your efforts (: cheers! ahahha also meilin and ping made my day la.. was sucha fun day with them at chinatown! nv regretted a single moment there. ahhaa. we shd go out and meet up more often! ahhaa.. we're all full of nonsense i realise. and god knows how long we spent in that beads shop la. haha AMAZING. anyway.. im already slacking like crazy in my school work.. yikes!! guess a leopard really can nv change its spots. damn it. oh well.. time for some much needed change. its 6am and im getting cranky. so i shall just type random thoughts.

i miss st nicks so much.

yunx i miss you so much too suddenly!!

del you too ):

i want to go to melbourne and visit 3 beloved people of mine (:

i really really really love danny with all my heart no matter how aged or cranky or whiny you become. sometimes i really love till it hurts.

i wish my sister was still here in spore with me.

i wish me ser cheri char jean were transported back to our good ol st nicks sec days.

i wish to be brought back to the days where i truly enjoyed and loved every moment of badminton training in my lower sec and pri school days in st nicks.. where our team was so bonded and we did so many things together. we were the best team ever as a whole. no discrimination just team unity and true love. hardship pain cruel physicals but ultimately fun joy glory victory friendship love (: i really miss those days where true spirit rang from every corner.

i wish you'd leave me alone.

i wish my wing wasn't so empty sad and quiet.

i wish i knew what i really wanted to do in life.

i wish you'd stay and because of you - i wish for the impossible.

I hear the clock, its six a.m.
I feel so far away from where Ive been
I got my eggs, I got my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off of the mirror,
dont leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore cause

Dreams last so long,
even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me
and I was meant for you

I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didnt wanna talk
So picked up a paper,
it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasnt the same
cause it was happy and I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad cause

Dreams last so long, even after youre gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you

I go about my business, Im doing fine
Besides, what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken every day

I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a book and turn the sheets down and then
Take a deep breath and a good look around

Put on my pjs and hop into bed
Im half alive but I feel mostly dead,
I, I try and tell myself itll be all right
I just shouldnt think anymore tonight cause

Dreams last so long,
even after youre gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
Yeah, you were meant for me and I was meant for you

HAPPY EARLY 21ST SHUMSSYYY BABBEEEE!!! ( or shd i say ba be bo as according to james) hahaha! i enjoyed ur party lots! (: and im really sad ure gna be away in thailand sooooo damnnnn longggggggg.. but well at least ull be enjoying urselfff! (: hahhaa.. anw sat was great! the food (esp the sashimi which ser alison and i totally devouredd) ahahahha.. u can ask jerome. when he came down immed aft shumz told him there was sashimi.. there were only 2 left! lol.. sashimi is like my newly acquired food delight! and it all started from the day ms jasmine ling forced me to try some of hers at sakae sushi one fine night (: yayyy! anw i didnt drink at shumz's party cz i wasnt feeling too great initially.. and thus took a panadol.. so i didnt wanna risk anything (n tt my frens is the reason why i was late to go to shumz's hse! not cz i overslept! DAMN BAD!) anw.. the only other pple i knew there were the ac pple... but i dntknw why i was sucha social butterfly that night.. happily mixing ard with pple i dont even know. lol. twas fun! (: we ate and ate and ate and ate ... played asshole daidee (me glass yayi jerome ser ALISON ) which was soooooooo super fun! ahhaa. notice how i highlighted alison's name.. lol she was like the highlight of the night la! nonstop making all of us laugh ... the cockroach incident... crumbs incident... ally and camps incident.. her witch laughter.. all her various and random comments! it was so damn fun! (: im really glad ser was there too! (: st nicks rocks la.. one thing i noticed that night was that when me ser alison and shumz come tgt... we end up being super unglam.. super loud.. super giggly.. super greedy and bimbotik. ahhaha! we have absolutely UNCONTROLLED LAUGHTER... we just kept bursting and bursting with giggly girly fits.. it was sooooooo funny! lol. unglam as we are.. we're proud of it (: all inta name of good fun and entertainment la huh (: im glad shumzi didnt get drunk or anything.. which i totally expected her to.. considering the circumstances. ahhaha her birthday cake cutting was really funny! we all just cldnt stop singing the bdae song and asking her to strip/sing etc. lol. the joel thing was another funny matter all tgt.. it was just really really fun! one of the few 21st bdaes i truly enjoy (: (im really sorry i missed urs yunx.. i regret it till today) the cab fares were bursting.. considering i took a cab there and back.. but hell with that! it was a fun night! (: shumz! u better spend ur bday money well! ahha ill go shopping wya to make sure of that! ahhaha and when are we going seng siong ah! hahaha.. anyone feel free to join our grocery shopping escapade... (esp those w cars lol). many things to look forward to!!

steamboat with jas aya jerome etc.
long hse dinner w cher ser char as usual (:
meet up w del ct cc
sengsiong n shopping w shumz n pam!
more suppers with jason ey all!
prata w alvin (hopefully thomson not fs)
heavenly mathematics with ping (HAHAHA)
jenna's 21st birthday at her hse! (:
snbt reunion dinner!
shopping with mich!
(:

its really hard to define what i want since it encompasses so much. but if you've been thru last sem with me.. u wld probably know what i want this time round. and yes im every bit as determined to get what i want. for now.. everythings going just fine (:

oh my. its been such a long time since i last blog. in fact i had totally and entirely forgotten that i had a blog. lol. i get like that every now and then. been really busy lately with tabletennis trainings and meet ups with jean and my sis. despite the high opportunity costs... (oh god economic terms ugh) i gave all i cld.. every min every sec just to meet up with them before they return to melb. altho it caused me alota dilemmas and headaches n hiccups along the way due to numerous clashes. i still stand by my decision and i do not regret any of it all (: i only wished they clda stayed longer. this sem is so different from the past 3. its so much quieter.. more disciplined.. so much more. lets hope my modules arent as boring as they currently seem to be. if not ill die of boredom even before midterm. the only module i find fascinating so far is heavenly mathematics. ahha astronomy rocks! but it takes far more than interest to achieve the grades.. and sad to say i only am a b3 standard in physics.. my visualization skills of planes and degrees and rotations.. suck. ahahah. hopefully it all works out inta end tho. im really glad im taking the modules with ping zes gil jas cait andy + friend (: i nv knew there were tt many pple taking this mod and im glad for it. (:

i see what i want.
i know what i want.
i believe in what i want.

i'll get what i want. you'll see. (:

i had the oddest dream of late (seriously)..

i dreamed a dream of time gone by
where we sisters formed three
where laughter was our only cry
and words of love between.

swimming and tanning sessions at my pool
playing nintendo
playing lousy mahjong with tons of food and 'words of love'
shopping shopping shopping!
going with me for my mom's DND or company organized events
going for comm hall breakfast without sleeping
watching stupid videos
making stupid videos
ROUND ROUND at sheng siong and getting caught
always getting caught for doing stupid things
ST NICKS
orange bowl
playing quality BRIDGE
even going to bishan cc to play prof bridge before cause of jac
always willing to do stupid things with me
laughing nonstop until we can't breathe or our stomach hurts
never exercising
always eating
clubbing sessions together (ZOUK!)
union camp '05 and '06 together
arts camp together
eyecandies together
CJC together
sitting on the deck floor of your yatch or boating club and altering nursery rhymes and doing weird body movements (deng deng deng diuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu)
dyeing your hair for you
you getting stuck on the walls of my room
us gossiping nonstop
how we can never ever ever keep our volumes down
you alws borrowing my vacuum cleaner to clean ur horribly dirty room
our love for singing
stayovers at your house
laughing at JIA MIN
laughing at my poor MRS DUBOSE situation
reading NB and JD books all the time
re-reading NB and JD nonstop
gettnig lamer and crappier everyday
having the same stupid lingo
eating sessions at newton circus every now and then
movies at lido with tons of food
kbox sessions
duetting SHUT UP and WU DING together always
always choosing the same songs over and over
CALCUTTA TAXI TAXI TAXI TAXI
I WILL GO THE DISTANCE (and how u alws cut me after the chorus -.-)
SPICE GIRLS
birthday celebrations for each other
your WAHHHHHHHHHHHH at the prata house outside zouk
UH UH
DAMN BAD
OH MY
TOTALLY
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH?
cutting hair sessions
ponning lessons
oversleeping
overeating
you drinking up all my chilli crab soup
CHILLI CRAB!
eating sessions at the prata house
laughing at dannyboy
after cj trips to fareast and town
going thru all the uh uh's together
eating waffles and kfc below your house after stayover
always forgetting how to get to your house (u stay 6th floor right? hmm)
iras work days together (oh god)
always planning to go holidays together but u never can
airport sessions with angie
slacker syndromes
your amazing lip power or king fisher face
me getting condemned by the rest of the dancers cause i shouted ur name first ata performance at ucc -.-
you always wearing your black top me always dressing down
me shaving my legs outside your room
cinth and i alws eating drippable things in your room
ICE CREAM!!
MOS BURGER!!
how good we are at throwing smoke bombs at pple or schoolwork
my various methods in waking you up
us always wanting to keep kittens in hall
us coming back from macs damn seh early inta morning aft eatg w freddie. totally couldn't walk straight at all.
always comparing current caterer to uncle vincent and the gd ol' days
always talking abt st nicks
my PE REP days
OH SEE MOY
MRS TIEN
MS QUEK
1 diamond.... 2 diamond... 3 diamond... GIVE ME ALL YOUR CARDS NOW!
playing at playgrounds
suffering thru DND and shared HATE
always taking a million yrs to try on clothes at ZARA or MANGO
MARCHE food outings.. always sharing the same yummy things + rootbeer
you always drinking from my waterbottle
and always putting things in my bag
all our stupid 'model' poses and 'catwalks' just abt everywhere
always saying we're not black enough
oiling up the pool with tanning oil (thats you not me)
forever getting bitten and sat on by del

never being more than a wk or a few days apart ...
never ever having any big or significant quarrels/standstills

.. until now.

):

THREE SISTERS


once we three were sisters
once we made our pact
living on our island
happy and content

if hell spewed its fury
it never broke our bond
if dark clouds threatened above
it only made us strong

with each turn of the tide
we climbed the wave and rode
be it good or bad
we kept each other afloat

now we've closed the distance
but our hearts are further apart
we may have quelled the past
but the present has stolen our path

i can't find my way forward
i know i can't go back
im stuck admist the raging waves
with nothing left to grab

i thought i heard a voice
it's calling me to shore
i thought i saw a helping hand
it reaches for me once more

it took a while to see the clear
to make sense of the whole
that voice i thought was heaven sent
was actually my own

i stood alone with bated breath
as my worst dreams unfold
i cried myself a river
and drowned myself twicefold

i hid away and played the game
so others wouldn't know
disguised the hurt and covered my eyes
so i wouldn't see it grow

i played it well
i made my rounds and even bought myself
a fairy tale where dreamers go
where i could be myself

i rolled the dice just one last time
to see if lady luck would hold
if i could keep the game at hand
i'd never have to fold

the dice spun off the board this time
i never saw its code
it must have been a lousy roll
i lost two turns at a go

a huge boat of troubles
i have since brought back with me
with one hand and covered eyes
i steered it into a dream

i knew the boat was going to crash
yet i knew i shouldn't flee
a captain never abandons his ship
even at the deepest seas

i dreamed a dream of time gone by
where we sisters formed three
where laughter was our only cry
with words of love between

although i know this boat will crash
i still hold on with my good hand
i guess there's only one question left
will you hold on with me?


// ever felt a sense of nothingness? that is exactly what im feeling.. in hopes tt nothing is what i hope the both of you would be to me.

oh myyyyyyyy! at shumzies hse now.. waiting for my hair to dye itself while she washes off her alr dyed hair. ahahha!! hopefully our streaks turn out goodddddd! if not .. hmm. ahah we can just bury ourselves in a hole and die alr. ahahha :/ last night was funnnnnn!!!!! went to yaski's bdae party at sunrise gardens.. really nice place!! food was good... (shumz n i stole the whole box of fried chicken flakes ting.. hee) and ate alot! i dint get to touch the cake tho :/ poor yaski was just being tortured the whole time.. all thks to mostly the ndu guys. ahhaha.. ey were tryin to force him to ram agst a pole... threw him inta pool.. hammie n kim ey all even made a nice mixture inta helmet outta all the food and sauces ey cld find. really gross. ahhahaa.. inta end most of it went to the floor.. so of course ey all ended up pushing yaski to the floor too to try to get the stuff on him anw. lol. aft that a whole buncha us went thomson prata aka the prata house a few stops down fr my hse to makannnnn! it was super yummish.. and shumz n i were totally embarrassed cz we were the only 2 to really bother to dress up as dead school girls (1 st nicks and 1 AC) damn paiseh la.. so with our fake blood flowing down from our lips and white ghostly faces and UH UH school uni.. we made our way very embarrassedly to the table ata prata hse. hahaha. it was really a whole big group! me shumz der liao hammie ben andy cong tim nolan.. yaski joined us later. making a hell lota noise and ate hell alot too! hahaha poor liao had to help me eat most of the food tt i ordered.. altho he complained alot i bet he was damn happy!!! he realy ate qt alot!! uh uh ah. anw aft tht shumz was super gian to drink and i just dint wna go home.. so me shumz liao tim yayi happily made our rounds in liao's car to find drinks and find a place to drink!!! aft much driving ard aimlessly and in dismay since like pratically everywhere was closed..inta end we went back to tim's place to get drinks and stuff and headed down to yishun peer/park to drink. it was really fun! ahhaha.. played alota stupid games and shumz n i were losing non stop! uh uh ah! kept drinking la.. damn bad w numbers and all the games tim intro-d to us. hahaa.. we shda just drank evtg right fr the start alr. hahah.. aft tt we headed down back to tim's place to hang out and play ps! ahahah DAMN FUN! ALL THE FIGHTING GAMES.. tim was obviously gd in it since he owns the damn game.. ahah shumz was superbly violent killllllllllllllll KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! I'M a MAAAAAAAAANIAAAAAAAAAC maaaaaaniaaaaaaaaaaaac on the FLOOOOOOOOOOORRRR!!! and you've neveeeeeeeeeeeeeerrr seeeen me acccccccccccct like this BEFOOOOREEEEEE!!! okayyyy shumz just took control of the comp and started typing rubbish... rubbish which only 2 of us appreciate but still rubbish anw. whahahaha.

had another drinking session with tim ben shumz liang jer nolan yy ytd (mon night) it was damnnnnnnnnn funnnnyyyyy!!!!! nolan was talking rubbish all the while ...... seriously rubbish.. much worse than yayi.. and totally random.. jerome was gone all the time wayyyyy b4 the drinkin session cz he and shumz were drinkin in my room b4 tt while playing speed..... (shumz says 'speed' really really really funnily btw....!!! ) hahahahhaa.. jer was as red as a lobster all over la.. and he was qt gone at the end of e session... tim was anal and qt sober... lost a toe nail tho.... ouchhh.. ben was crazy la... got super high ... excited and positively happy. ahahha! it was hilarious! he actually even pulled out wei liangs leg hair.... which was really gross....! ahhaha.. loved all the games we played! damn fun laaaaaaa!!!!!!! we drank till morn and inta end left me jer shumz tim in tims room. jer slept thruout n woke up only when shumz started to squirt contact solution at him. ahhahaa.. i slept on off on off ever since yayi refused to let me cont playing! hahaha.. which is the reason why i'd thought i'd take a rest and thus fall aslp.. ahhaha. shumz n tim were watching family guy and south park and wat not. ahahhahaa. aft tt jer went back to his room to die thus leaving the 3 of us. hahaha. we were spse to eat macs breakfast but shumz n i fell aslp. uh uh ! hahaaaaa. aft tt shumzie and i went holland v to eat yummyyyy crystal jadeeeeee! ahhahaa we wanted to eat evtg onta menu laaaaa...... esp shumzz! ahhahaha. super funny. yummmmisssshhhh!! aft tt was grocery shopping at cold storage... we took like an hr to shop cz we cldnt stop oohing and aahhing at every food item onta shelf... ahahha!!!!!! aft tt non stop family guy. we alr watched the whole of season 1. we just finished the 1disc of season 3. rocks la. we're mad... seriously

tav's bdae drinking party later.... ill now.. but im still gian to drink. we'll see how it goes..
damn tired... tired of everything.

just came back to my room from talking to ping. 4 whole hours we talked!! =) i really love this girl and our conversations.. no matter how serious or hilarious ey may get. feels really gd to just sit down in our own lil corner and talk like we've got all the time inta world and all the world to ourselves. i felt much better aft the talk even tho both our probs weren't solved. haha. we were tallking abt like hall life.. the pros n cons of it.. abt how all these expectations build up.. and how u feel u got to act up to them..abt cliques..how and why they form and the 'consequences' of em.. abt how sometimes u just want to eat with 1 person and not e whole clique..or how sometimes u just want to steer away sometimes.. how some friends are really situational friends..you're only close to them at one point of time in your life.. but at least they were a part of it and that perhaps they were there at that time for a reason. lol. we were talking abt how its really hard to make really gd frens in hall.. and how hall life is transient n u gta look back to ur jc n sec life to seek out ur true frens etc.. we were also wondering.. that all of us got so many sides to us.. to diff grps of pple n all n whether all our sides are in fact a reflection of our true selves? n if we are being fake? why is it so... and all these kinda things hahaha. well i tink the different sides of us arent fake.. just tt when u hang out with diff grps.. well cz grps come tgt cz of certain similarities.. so when we're with tt particular grp of pple we just tend to show more of tt side of us.. if that even makes sense at all.


i dntknw. i tink ping and i.. we're just living in our own lil world sometimes..its like.. we're traditional girls living in a modern world (this one is really hard to explain.. its more like the values n stuff)..we love to just sit back.... talk....look at the stars..
always dreaming of escaping to an island where there's the sun sand and sea. just imagine yourself on an island with your best buds.. basking in the suns warmth.. cooling yourself down with an ice cold drink.. hearing the rise and falls of the waves.. hear seagulls chirping in the distance.. just lying down.. with not a care in the world but for that very moment.. a moment of peace and tranquility.. a moment you have all to yourself.. where you and your best bud(s) simply lay back and enjoy nature and all its beauty as time crawls by.. where there is no need to talk and an air of comfortable silence just takes over. yes. this is the kind of life we dream about. sometimes i feel we're like two people stuck in the world of disney. where everything is a fantasy.. where everything and everyone is happy. we usually prefer the old to the new.. we love to stone and reminisce abt the good ol times and how things used to be.. we enjoy old movies tgt.. enjoy the simplicity of life.. forever lazing ard inta pool and talking rubbish..staying over at each other's hse's not do anything spectacular but simply enjoy each others company..or perhaps stone in silence tgt..watch brainless things tgt.. with topics ranging from small things.. to larger things... stupid to philosophical... abt past present n future...from lil things tt affect us.. or just any random thought. like i said.. its really hard to explain. but the bottom line is .. we're in our own lil world. i dont know why we alws end up talking like tt somehow..with alota crap and stupid things in btw. like just now in her room.. we were 'playing' softball with a marker and this small plastic ting(u know the small egg like capsule thing tt usually contains a toy inside which u have to slot a coin inta machine to turn out?).. ahha.. the marker being the bat and the plastic ting being the ball. ahhaha. madness. many other stupid and crazy examples i can provide you with.. but lets not put our reputation at stake or in jeopardy here. (:


sometimes its good to just sit down and talk with a friend..not just cz u wna bond with her or him or u feel obliged to cz u havent done so in a really long while.. but bcz u really wna talk to that person and u really wna knw wats happening in his or her life. i feel sometimes you dont have to meet in quantity..sometimes its better to just stick to smaller numbers..i mean tgt is more fun of course.. but sometimes im so sick n tired of all the nonsense..and life is like becoming so monotonous that i just feel like moving back home. well.. i always believe in my motto.half of which i came up with.. the other a gd fren of mine.. chris.. alws tells me.. that ''everything happens for a reason... and everything happens for the best'' eventually it'll all work out.

10am now.. and im still not asleep. ROCKS. anyways.. to my dear DU PI .. happy birthday dearrrrrrr!! sorry i cant be there to celebrate your bdae with you once again! nonetheless.. you've always been my best friend and best cousin. we've known each other for 20 yrs now.. and despite the distance set btw us.. we still manage to remain as close as ever. i really believe that true friendship is hard to find.. and you are someone i believe will stand by me forever.. who's friendship will definitely withstand the test of time (and distance). cant wait for you to get back to spore (: i miss you.

whats going on?
so many thoughts running thru my mind of late.
chow cinth n i each have plenty of things to think about recently.
chow has Ca and Fb to think abt.
cinth has Bb and Db.
i have Ad and Kc (mainly) and Jb and Sb (on the side).
i think we're all going to become ms emo's soon.
all the letters are either awkward.. caught in limbo or just sad.
cinth dear im glad u feel better.. u and Bb are doin fine..
chow heads up man.. ull nv knw when the ball will fly in ur part of the field.
tong tong ... dont worry too much. u n her will be fine =)
me.. cont ignoring Ad and focus more on Kc, Jb and Sb.

LETS JUST FOCUS ON OUR STUDIES SHALL WE?!?!
STUDY SESSIONS BABES!! WE CAN DO IT! =)

i hate how you make me think.
i hate how you make me confused.
i hate how you act so weird.
i hate how we went wrong.
i just want us to be normal good friends.
so what the fuck are you trying to pull.
stop using her to get to me its not working.
stop using others to get to me im not stupid.
you know whats the worst of it?
i hate myself..
cz i cant bring myself to hate you.
:/

yayyyyyyy!!! there's the new watch i bought above! its reallllllly pretty and i love ittttttt! (: ping n i nearly DIED tryin to decide btw the red and the turquoise! lol. inta end i took the red and she took the turquoise!! BRILLIANT! (: both of us were really really happpppppy! and we cldnt stop looking inta mirror or at each other's watch to admire our extravagently wonderful most recent purchase! (: (ping we dont spend alot when we're tgt.. really we dont!! haha) anw.. in addition to the new watch i got... (which is actually different as compared to the older version that jacinth has.. this one is adidas candy dntknw what.. ahha) i got new specs tooooooo! really exciting! browsed ard EYE PLAY at heeren for the longest time w ping n finally decided onta red n orange frame (: REALLY EXCITING! ill be wearing my specs really often for sure! (: not exactly wat i had in mind initially ( i wanted sth likee aya and jasmine's specs.. which has intricate designs n were 3 toned i tink..) but nvm!! im really satisfied wita one i bought. its outstanding but not overbearingly so.. simple.. relatively pricey but acceptable.. definitely funky and the orange n red combi is so cheery that it brightens up my whole day! (: YAYYYY! been spending alot alot alot recently.. the watch.. the specs.. shoes.. tons n tons of food.. just the above few along chalks up to abt $500 alr la. hahaha.. all those who OWE MONEY PAY MONEYYYYYYYYY!!! no la. jk. alright gta do my dnd finance log sheet now.. did the tutorial balloting just now n i got a splitting headache! hopefully this next chore wont traumatize me as well. taaaaaaa

sheares hall supper anyone? (: